I suck at writing. 
One of my classmates when I was in grad school is now a renowned author.  
“It’s bland,”  she said during a creative writing course.  
I took that to heart, and I kept writing.  Just like a traumatic love story that haunts my masochistic heart.
What you are reading, however, are pieces of my soul, that passed through the lens.
I don’t claim to be an expert or some hippie guru sprouting some digital incantations, but they are merely musings of a filmmaker who is also weaving his own narratives.  
The writing may suck, but please give it a chance.
Use them as you may; 
be it for prayer, 
intellectual jousting, 
or as a reminder  of hope in times of existential despair. 
These are thoughts and images that intersect with a few of my favorite things:  films, photography, meaning, spirituality, mental wellness, and the constant ardor for life.  
They are outcomes of my peripatetic interactions with people across the globe and the wisdom that I borrowed from them, stored in my hard drives that took years in the making.  They are my sorrows and joys packed in the smallest picture elements that I hope to synthesize into wisdom, an added sweetness to your morning coffee or tea.
Unlike social media, this is not a platform to post public comments in response to these reflections.  
Though I’d love to hear your thoughts through email:  nichcsc@gmail.com
your friend and brother,  
ἀνάστασις  || anástasis

Thoughts on Paper: 5684

A letter.

Rebirth.  Recovery.  The irradiation of human tissue.
The Resurrection, a big event for many.  It’s the cornerstone of faith and a daily struggle to find. 
It’s the final scene of The Shawshank Redemption when Andy Dufrense steps out of the five football fields of shit and that proverbial crane shot in the rain.
As I was filming in Enchanted Rock, in Llano, Texas,  what I had in mind was this notion of coming back to life, especially after being confined for more than a year during this pandemic, we could definitely use some “resurrecting”.
I thought of Mary Magdalene and the women who found the empty tomb, waiting and searching.
And I thought of the emptiness that reverberates sometimes in our lives, and I wonder what the heck are we doing about it?
If I can just find simple moments of anástasis through the lens, in every simple interaction, with  other human beings, with nature, within ourselves, they all build-up to this resurrection.

Ελπίζω Hope
Thoughts on Paper: 2314

A hunger for hope seeps through. So after a cup of coffee, I looked through some notes from the past and some images of light caught in New Mexico.
I was worried as if things will fall apart, considering the times. My films and work are not getting the traction I was hoping for, but I make films, not for film festivals. I make them because they give me life as if breathing. But passion does not pay the bills.
Rereading Václav Havel’s Disturbing the Peace: A Conversation with Karel Hvížďala, something struck. He writes:

“Hope, in this deep and powerful sense, is not the same as joy that things are going well, or willingness to invest in enterprises that are obviously headed for early success, but rather an ability to work for something because it is good, not just because it stands a chance to succeed. The more unpromising the situation in which we demonstrate hope, the deeper that hope is. Hope is not the same thing as optimism. It is not the conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense, regardless of how it turns out. In short, I think that the deepest and most important form of hope, the only one that can keep us above water and urge us to good works, and the only true source of the breathtaking dimension of the human spirit and its efforts, is something we get, as it were, from ‘elsewhere.’ It is also this hope, above all, that gives us the strength to live and continually to try new things, even in conditions that seem as hopeless as ours do, here and now.”
 pp. 181-182

We truck on, no matter what.
Some silence.  
Thoughts on paper.  4342 
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